Going away on vacation. Will try to update via phone on twitter. Be back on the fifteenth!
Category : Vague
It amazes me sometimes how much I yearn for simplicity. How I seem to daydream about it. I know what I want, it’s just too far out of reach. Life at the moment is pretty scary and I am fairly lost. Tears on my face, salt on my lips.
Category : Vague
I somehow feel like this is my fault. My…theories were correct. I don’t know why it bothers me so much.
Something so…inappropriate happened today. Something below my maturity level. It makes me feel like something is going to lurch out of my stomach. Like something out of “Aliens”. Freaky.
I don’t know why I do stupid shit. I did it today to amuse someone else, which is horrible. I am horrid.
And then I kicked someone already down. Down, down, down the rabbit hole, where time is ticking away like a bomb. I want a smoking caterpillar.
“What would you do without your site? You love your site.”
Site. Sight.
Like seeing right through. Out is through and back again where nothing makes sense and I’m clawing my way out again.
My name is Horrid and it’s been almost four hours since I’ve done something horrible. That’s a lie. Four minutes tops.
And a lie can be horrid, so four seconds?
Four seconds and I’ll be at it again. Chewing on words I threw at you in hopes you couldn’t deliver.
But you always do baby. It’s a curve ball.
Getting back to some roots while I’m in my current “condition”.
It’s pretty bad when I know that I am being a selfish bitch but cannot make it stop. I’m just bitter. I am bitter to be the only one left. I am sad because I know I doomed to be abandoned. I’m depressed because I know I can never have the same. I am ashamed that I feel and think the things I do. I’m horrible. Horrid.
