Back in Town

Category : Daily, Family, Friends, Randomage, Visual

I am back from my glorious vacation. On Sunday the eighth, my mother, my best friend (and room-mate), and myself got in the car and set out for Atlanta, Georgia. We went through Ohio (boring), Kentucky (so beautiful) and Tennessee (scenic as well) and then made it to our destination in Georgia. We stayed at the Westin Peachtree Plaza hotel, which was amazing. We were on the fifty-fourth floor with an amazing view (I’m still working on getting all my photos together), and had heavenly beds and a heavenly shower. The hotel staff was amazing and the atmosphere was wonderful. I would definitely stay there again. The only thing we did on the way down was view Cumberland falls, but otherwise we were trying to get to Atlanta as fast as possible. We took two days to get down (staying in a Hampton in over night), and on Monday just used our time to relax and walk around the hotel. On Tuesday we spent almost the entire day at the world’s largest aquarium, the Georgia Aquarium (I have so many photos and videos to go through). The next day we visited the Georgia Zoo (again, so many photos). Once we were done at the Zoo we decided to head for Five Little Points. The next day we visited Roswell, Georgia and did a tour of a plantation house. This was on Thursday (our last full day in Georgia), so once we were done there we spent the remainder of our time in the hotel just relaxing and talking about everything we had seen. On the way back home we did Clingman’s Dome (which was insane, but beautiful), where I briefly met and was able to get a photo of John Glenn.

Not only were all the attractions just wonderful, but so was the food. We ate out for almost every meal and I was no disappointed once. I have a few photos of the places we ate at because some of them were just awesome on the inside. Such as a pizzeria that had giant action figures hanging from the ceiling. Sadly, I don’t think I got any inside photos of the Goodfellows pizzeria (which was across the street from the hotel). We also ate at the Hard Rock Cafe, which was amazing.

Overall I had an amazing vacation. I wouldn’t have traded it for anything. It was awesome. And it was my first “real” vacation away from home. It was also the first time I have been out of the state. Technically I have been to Ohio, but just to cross the border for the Zoo (so it doesn’t really count).

At this point I just need to go through all my photos and videos. I had five memory cards on me that are all full, so I will probably need to wait until my day off to really go through them all. For now though, here’s a teaser.

Gotten Off Track

Category : Daily, Randomage

Somehow I have gotten completely off track in my own life. Everything seems skewed. I haven’t gotten done half of what I wanted to this summer. Things keep falling through. And frankly, I am easily distracted these days. Everyone keeps telling me to just relax and have fun this summer before fall starts and I’m back to being in classes full-time and working full-time. But I keep thinking of all these things I wanted to get done before I get too busy to get anything done.

I feel like I’ve kind of lost sight of myself and what I want. While I am keeping up my diet, I let the gym membership fall through. I could give excuses as to why I didn’t sign up for the membership, but that’s all I have, excuses. I know it’s my fault for not stepping it up and really going for what I want and the only way to fix that is to kick my own ass into gear. At this point I’m just going through the motions without even really considering how that’s effecting me.

I can admit that I have been really depressed lately. For those that don’t know, I was clinically diagnosed with severe depression years ago. Of course starting in high school and then years after high school. However, I started seeing a therapist and taking anti-depressants. At least two or three years ago I felt tons better and my therapist and doctor agreed that I could be taken of the meds and I was able to stop therapy sessions. While I am not even close to feeling as depressed as I was, I can see the direction I am currently headed in is not a good one. I figure I need to start by doing small things. For instance, tomorrow I’m getting my hair cut. I know, this may seem like something small or stupid to take control of, but you wouldn’t think so if you saw my hair. One of my major problems (as always has been), is that I am very indecisive. So I made an appointment to get my hair chopped off. It’s time. It’s long and unruly. I’ve been debated for a long time if I wanted to really grow it out or get it cut short. Frankly, it’s so long at this point that I am taking 45 minute showers and have to part it in the back to reach the ends when brushing. So there. I made a decision. Hair will be chopped off tomorrow. This will be a slight improvement for my body image, since the diet is going steady…but is slow to show results.

I also want to get more involved in causes that mean something to me. I want to join the environmental group on campus and other groups that appeal to my interests. I want to attend those poetry readings I keep getting invited to, and possible get on the damn stage myself.

I want to learn to cook, damnit. Even if it’s simple meals for two. It’s a problem that I can’t boil an egg. There’s so much I want to learn. So much I want to do.

Frankly, what it comes down to is that I feel like I’ve lost me. I want to be me again. I want to be interested, curious and learning. I want to evolve.

I need to be ME. Not someone who is just drifting through life going through the motions.

So watch yourself. I’m coming back!

First Vlog! (be gentle)

Category : Bitch, Randomage, Video

I had no intention of posting this. Then I thought, what the hell.

You’re gonna need a bigger box.

Category : Daily, Drama, Randomage

So, here’s a funny story for you. Yesterday I get up and head for the bathroom. While I am in the bathroom I hear a knock on our screened in porch door. I look out the window and see the terminix truck. I thought this was weird since I didn’t receive a postcard or phone call letting me know when they were coming. So I throw on some more decent clothes over my pj’s and head for the door to let him in. He comes in and starts playing the bug repellent in the corners of the windows and as he heads towards my room that when I remember that I have the sex toy I am giving away on my dresser. And that I have a few others on my book shelf (since I forgot to put them away after drying and really don’t have a box big enough anymore). What did I do? Freeze. I probably should have told him to give me a moment or something and let him do the bathroom first, but no. I just freeze, mortified. He most definitely saw the one on the dresser. I watched him eyeball it. I do not think he saw the ones on my book shelf, since my book shelves are so cluttered with random stuff. When he looked back at me he had a smirk on his face. Luckily he didn’t say anything. If he would have, I would have died. Once he left my room-mate came out of his room and saw me standing there with my hand over my mouth laughing hysterically. I am sure I was the story of his day. I am probably the talk at the office. Everyone he knows probably knows now.

It still makes me laugh.

Is it nap time yet?

Category : Bitch, Daily, Randomage

I have been so tired all week that I have fallen asleep upon arriving home every single day of this week. I’ve napped on my bed, half in my bed, sitting on the couch, sitting at the table and sitting at my computer desk. I think it’s safe to assume that I am exhausted. It has been a busy and somewhat stressful week at work. I’ve been trying to keep up with my online projects and the communities I am apart of but I have noticed my slacking behavior lately.

I find it interesting that I feel the need to always have a full plate. I’ve mentioned to friends before that I have this issue with just relaxing. Today is my first day off of work in five days and I have a list of things I want to get done. I can’t just sit on the couch and watch a movie. I can’t just read a book. There are things to be done. So instead, I did a little site maintenance, I’m going to organize and post my giveaway, work on images for my approved fanlistings, and go grocery shopping.

I finally downloaded the free game that came with my computer’s graphics card a few days ago. Have I played it? Nope. I keep thinking about starting it up and creating my character, but then I think of all the more productive things I could be doing. Productive, that’s the word that haunts me. I feel this need at almost all times to be productive in some way. Whether it’s doing things for work, school or personal things. The goal is to get things done. I also have this horrible habit of making lists in my head of things I need to get done and when. This is problematic, because if things don’t go my way…let’s just say I get a little bitchy. This I am working on. There always seems to be someone throwing a monkey wrench into my plans so I’ve really started to get over the whole “this is how my ideal day is going to go.” Because honestly, it never goes my way.

Hmm. Perhaps I will just throw out all my plans for the day and watch a movie. Or read a book.

It sounds grand.

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